Leap is doing as well as he can. Very tired. Has some internal bleeding from the failed stent. He still insists on no further operations no matter what.
He did eat for my angel of a grandmother who hasn’t been able to get him to cooperate much. She was able to get him out of bed and into his chair and had his favorite music playing for him as well as his favorite news channel. Since there’s no sports and he can’t watch his Cardinals, that’s all he has. He did eat for her today, although I can’t remember what it was. I think it was sweet potatoes and some type of soup.
Awaiting hospice to reach out after trying to reach them. They have received his information from his physicians, but they didn’t get around to calling back. I’m assuming because of the Covid-19 deal. Just a small update. That’s all that I have.
I had some moments yesterday where I was angry. He is an amazing man. He pitched in the cardinals organization in his prime. He has survived an aneurism, cancer, disease without care as a child where he was bed ridden. Orphaned, you name it. He made it happen. I was angry because my grandad was just quitting. My wife and my dad talked to me and I had to set myself straight. It’s his right, his dignity, and he knows what’s to come. I’m not trying to sound selfish but I just don’t want to lose my grandad. Coping and dealing with a loss affects people different.
I’ve watched my childhood best friend turn into a vegetable and live off of life support for the last 11 years, my grandmother slowly pass painfully from Parkinson’s, dementia, and strokes, my grandfather from dementia and pneumonia.... Leap was there in person just a month ago while I was a pallbearer. I can’t help but think that he doesn’t want that for us to see something drag out.
My wife brought up the fact that I have papers with my attorney that state that I don’t want to be kept alive by life support or prolong the inevitable and that Leap and I are the same. I can’t argue that... It just sucks.
This [ Finebaum ] hurts
We all understand the life cycle. God is the creator. We come from dirt and we return to it, but, I never really thought for a second that my grandads would die as crazy as it sounds. Hell, I’m about to be 30 and it never crossed my mind. I guess I just for some crazy reason thought that they lived forever and all the memories and stories that came with it. It never crossed my mind.
My grandmother is a Seneca-Cayuga-Wayandot Indian and Leap is a second generation Scotch Irish immigrant. He is the American dream. She is tough on him and as of today he is cooperating a bit for the time being.
ShreveFrog is rock solid.....On the outside. Same with TopFrog.
I’ve had some fire water so please excuse misspellings or rambling.
Edit: fun fact - I’m the last to be able to be claimed by the tribe and carry an Iroquois nation tribal identification card. Leap diluted our bloodline too much lol. And my cousin Koda Glover is the only Native American professional baseball player in recent years to be called up to THE SHOW. We’ve got that going for us!